Mid-Autumn Festival

GESL bball competition...

Today early morning, I initially planned my time such that I will finish my NIE-GESL basketball competition then go on to tuition at around 1pm. Even told my students that everything will end ard 12. But end up, We played till the end cuz my team consist of Ben, Sandy, CQ, Aloysius, Dr Peng and I went into the finals after going through three rounds of knock-out stages. ( Dear was there to support us, and my team mates was like, so nice of her lo.. must zhen xi.. haha) Anyway, while waiting for the finals to start its oredi ard 1pm le, so I might as well tell my students I wun be able to make it... After that, went into the finals, and our opponent is very strong. Got one guy damn tall, almost as tall as me but he can dunk, I think he is an undergraduate in NIE. And through-out the practice, everyone was like looking at him lor.. All his match we were very focus and deep in me, I somehow tot we can't win, and decided to console myself that getting 2nd oso got $100 for our GESL fund, so quite satisfied le.. But it was really a miracle. Ben's 3 pointer is very accurate and he displayed it only in the finals. He got 3 in, so around 6 points le and I got 4 points .End up my team won, not through skill, but good teamwork.. But the guy was mostly doing one man show.. 11-8, final score. close fight.. And we secure $150 for our GESL fund. I was exhilerated. Though din get to go for tuition, but once in a while, its okay I think. $$ 是赚不完的. Rare chance of competition in my favourite game, chances to bond with my group mates, is more worth it. End up the tuition from 5pm-6.30pm also cancelled cuz student not well.. Today come back home early also good la.. rest mah.. previous few days keep chiong school, project, bike and tuition really very tired 1 leh.. haha.. Free time is a luxury to me..  cuz i feel sinned if I spend too much time doing nothing constructive. tmr got 3 tuitions. stating from 830am - 10.30 am at Tiong Bahru, then 2.30-4.30 at Orchard. Then 5.30-7pm at Pioneer.. today, must rest. dun care got wad project or wad.. I am slacking today..    

screwed..

Today is a day which is super tiring but not at all achieving.

Morning 7 plus wake up cuz got QCB521 - teaching of biology II at 8.30am to 10.30am. Reach school rather earlier cuz I am trying to quit the bad habit of being late for morning lectures. End up many pple arrived after 8.40am.. hmm, then got around 10 collegues nv turn up cuz maybe everyone thought this week is e-learning week. But in fact, is only Monday lesson that has e-learning, thanks to Travis who reminded my ytd.

After the lecture, the next one is educational psychology which needs lots and lots of discussion. For me, I was almost keeping silent throughout the discussion.Very unlike me, cuz in the past I used to be very chatty. But now, dunno why, totally shut off during discussion. pple piak ang mo and i got a darn hard time figuring out wad they are talking about. Plus, I am currently in a walking zombie state everyday, where got time to prepare.. haiz

Then in between five hours try to cook sth out of nothing lo.. hopefully can siam through la. Wasted 5 hours, cant go anywhere. stay in library lo.. Then come 3.30pm, go for lesson. pple discuss,i listen till almost fall asleep cuz ytd do assignment till quite late. 

Then went bbdc take riding theory practice at 6.15pm, but end up din even book for it, seriously i tot i have. I have msg my students that i will postpone tuition to 8 pm le, then he happily go rest. din want to wake him up, so went to somewhere near dear's house use laptop do concept mapping due TMR!!! and settle my dinner at "ba da". 8pm went students house tuition to 10 plus. Lucky my dad come pick me. if not surely reach home only at 11 plus cuz my student's house in toh tuck..

Current state, chao tired, but got to do work. my project mates may blame me for not fulfilling my duties. They may tot I am a free rider. But, if i got the luxury of time, I wun want myself to be in such state.Tmr, the cycle shall goes again, friday, same, saturday lagi jia lat. Only my bbf will understand...  

Gratification

All my blog post are my thoughts and feelings for the day. hmm, very seldom do i post things like wad did i do today, or wad i hope to do etc. Today's blog is no difference.

I am someone who can easily be influenced by friends. I mean who don't right? To a certain extend, to be part of who you mixed with, your background, our upbringing. Every single aspect of your life makes you who you are now. And, what u do, think, work hard or not for, will also affect your future. At the very present me, I am greatly affected by my bbf who is in nie with me. He is someone whom I respect greatly as he is always full of drive when come to do serious things.Though he do admit that he is an emblem of work without much life, but he is always doing the right thing to me. I am always pushed by him and given that i dun have his character, it really stressed me alot. He tells me that all of us has 24 hours a day,and for him though he has as much commitment as me, he is always on task cuz he devotes all his time to his work. This is the reason why i admire him to the fullest. someone whom i can nv be like.

However, there is one thing which we are very different. He is a person who looks for delayed gratification, while i am one who is only concerned with instant gratification. All of us do things cuz of benefits at the end of the day. That is external motivation in educational psychology. But I also believe that, if one can look for long term benefit instead of shorter term, this person can go far. He reminded me in one of our conversation that, don't wait for other people to do first before u start, always be the first to start things going. I hope i can keep his words in mind. 

Another group of my friends don't have the same drive, but is living life happily. At least I can see they are happier than this bbf of mine. They live life without stress, but happier. Is success a route of loneliness? Does leaders, like an eagle, always have to travel by himself out of the herds? I have missed out on many things, in exchange for benefits. I used to priortise work first then friends and family. But end of the day, I dun live forever. My success or failure will go with me when i depart from this world. Whenever I spend quality time with my family, I know it is not eternal. How long more can i play with my little brother before he grows up and start to face the same problem as me and isolate himself in order to achieve? While he is still young and playful, I would love to spend more time with him. While my parents are still healthy, to bring them to different places, to see the world. I have done wad I could and despite the opportunity to excel in nie, I rather be contented and work harder to repay my family. I hope to do what I could for them. But I will also work hard for delayed gratification.